21 List: Update.

So I started this blog with a post listing 21 things I'd like to achieve by the time I'm 21 and it's been a few months and people are starting to ask questions. I know it seems like I'm not acting on many of them, but these things take time and I'm doing little things that you might not be aware of so I decided an update about them was necessary, just so you know that I'm not a complete failure of a person. So here we go -
1. Learn to Drive - waiting on my provisional to arrive!
2. Get a Job - have applied several places, have interview in morning.
3. Be able to play Expert on Guitar Hero - i fail at this one.
4. Write something publishable - bleeeh.
5. Make a new friend - Made new friends at University.
6. Reconnect with an old friend - Reconnected with people from my past :D
7. Read 50 Books (and subsequently, post the finished list here)- My current total is 5 and I'm waiting on more to arrive for me to read!
8. Make a photo album containing photos of friends and fun times. - photos are being taken when I'm out and about.
9. Keep a notebook of quotes that I like that I have heard/read throughout the year. - Yeah, I'll start this one eventually.
10. Get another tattoo - to be done asap.
11. Save £1000 - I hate money. Hopefully the job will help with this one.
12. Visit another country - I'm going to England in September and hopefully somewhere nice in summer.
13. Get an O2 number Done this at New Years when I got a new phone :)
14. Master one recipe to perfection and post it as a blog! - I think I'm going to master the art of vanilla or chocolate cupcakes. Which would you prefer?
15. Buy something from a designer label (Prada? Jimmy Choo?) I bought a Swarovski Crystal Butterfly Necklace.
16. Go to a concert of a band I enjoy listening to. I'm going to see Paramore in June :)
17. Learn to speak a different language or how to play an instrument. - Ah bollocks, I forgot about this one.
18. Go on a proper date (like, for dinner, with a boy I like and whom likes me :P) - I have been offered a date but I didn't like the guy so I politely declined! Any other takers?
19. Have a spa day with someone. - Yes, to be had soon.
20. Try and have a successful blog with readers that comment (who are more than just my personal friends and family). - Well, here I am, updating, only 8 days after my last one, I'll get there eventually!
21. Fall in Love (Here's hoping!) - Well, this one has always been doubtful.

So there you go. Out of a possible 21, I have completed 5 and started most of the rest of them. So I don't think I'm doing too badly. But really, if you know, you want to donate to teh Sami fund, or take me on a date, or teach me a new language, or how to drive, I'd definitely appreciate it! Do you lot have any goals for this year? Share in the comments!

I can and I will.

So, I know I am bad at this blogging thing, but to be fair, I've been sick for basically two weeks straight which has sucked but I seem to have perked up tonight upon realizing tomorrow I return to normal routine and stuff. I am excited!

Anyway, recently I've been wondering if I've chosen the right University course. As weird as it sounds. I study English and I study it because since I was about 10 and relatively more aware that being a Pony-Rider isn't an actual job, I knew I wanted to write.

It developed more in my early teens when in my emo-depresso stage, I wrote poetry. Seams and seams of pages of poetry. It might not have been happy but it was still a way for me to express my emotions. An emotional release I called it if I remember correctly.

Since my early teens, I haven't written as much. I did achieve 50 000 words for NaNoWriMo one year and wrote a couple of poems stemming from a relationship and a major life change. However, since then I seem to have hit a blockage, a wall of some kind I couldn't seem to get over and I'm sure you all have noticed with my lack of blogging and stuff. All of this made me doubt myself. I attempted NaNoWriMo this past November but I just couldn't muster it.

I felt a little lost, they say to be a writer, you need to write everyday and I was barely writing once a month. That hasn't changed, but my attitude has. I guess by believing that I couldn't write, that I had hit a wall, stemmed my blockage more. It's not just inspiration you need, but motivation and energy and focus.

I can't say I'll ever have all of those at one time and it'll be a miracle if I do. But I don't feel as lost anymore. I've had some kind of epiphany that stemmed from a conversation from an old friend who was needing help deciding what to do. I was giving him advice on what course he should study and amidst my, you can do it, you'll be fine exclamations,I applied this logic to myself.

Sometimes you really should heed your own advice. I know that if I want to be a writer, I might need to actually write a bit more than I have been. But now that I've perked up, that my attitude has changed, that I can see a little bit more clearly, I know in my heart that I can be a writer. That I will be a writer and that's all that matters!

And if you're doubting yourself, then take this advice:

You can and you will!