Future Husband Series; Letter 2

Dear Future Husband,

Sorry it's taken me so long to write again, I just seem to lose track of time and days and weeks and I've no idea what's going on. Currently, I'm trying to find a job so I can pay my rent which I owe from last month and I've got a month to find the money. I've a feeling it's not going to be very fun, or even happen.

So forgive me for not feeling so up to writing to you, I don't want to bother you with my current worries. You and I will have plenty of other things to worry about, rent will be one of them I think. But so will other bills and so will having fun and keeping the spark alive, let's do that, okay?

Maybe get a bottle of wine on the go, to help us along the way though. I don't really know what to tell you now. I've given you a physical description. Maybe I should tell you more about me and how I work which I am not sure I even know, but I'll try.

I am a human being. I am complicated, complex, confusing and I contradict myself all the time. I like sleep, yet I am often an insomniac. Don't worry, I'll figure out a way to let you sleep while I lie awake. I don't want to get married, yet here I am writing letters to you and calling you 'husband'. I'm not sure I want kids either, but apparantley that'll grow out of me eventually.

As for complicated, aren't all women? We get moody and annoyed and easily upset over the silliest things. I know it's annoying to you, but what can you do other than detail with it/us.

Apart from all of those things, I am cool. Definitely cool :P. I read lots of books and sometimes attempt to write them as well as some poetry and blogs. I also spend lots of time online chatting to my friends and stalking people on facebook, or playing farmville and a whole host of other fbook games, haha. I also drink lots of tea and stalk around looking for the best cupcakes in n.ireland. I swear if being a cupcake reviewer was a job, id do it. (Anyone care to pay me to do that plz?!)

Hmm, what else? I volunteer during the summer, helping with a summer scheme that takes kids out on trips everyday. I used to be one of the kids so to help out the next generation is kinda nice :). As well as that, Im spending my summer trying to find a job which sucks since the level of unemployment is so high. Rawrr. Other than that, Im spending time with friends and stuff and thats about it.

So, I'm not really sure what's next for us. But I promise it'll be sooner than this one came.
Love always,
Future Wife
xoxo

The Book Of Love Is Long and Boring

"There comes a point where you just love someone. Not because they're good, or bad, or anything really. You just love them. It doesn't mean you'll be together forever. It doesn't mean you won't hurt each other. It just means you love them. Sometimes in spite of who they are, and sometimes because of who they are. And you know that they love you, sometimes because of who you are, and sometimes in spite of it."

I'm not going to lecture you on love. I just thought this quote was rather apt for certain people and things atm and I liked it, so I thought I'd share.

I know I promised a future husband letter and trust me, I'm working on it. So for now, you can just mull over my quote, leave a comment and send me abusive msn/facebook msgs to update more often.

Sami
xox

I Wrote This For You.

I know a lot of us have been having a hard time lately. I've been having one too. I've been filling out application forms til my head and hand hurts, I check every single day for an email, for new jobs I can apply for and yet no-one wants to hire me. I feel like Im not good enough and I shouldn't, because I am good and it's the company's loss. It's mine too a little because Im the one trying to pay rent at the end of the month but still.

Im not going to tell you that everything's going to be alright because let's face it, it probably isn't. You've got to struggle and climb and pull yourself up that mountain and sometimes the grass is browner on the other side. But when you get to the top, for just a moment, you feel good, you've made it this far. And you'll be happy for a while and then you'll slip and fall back into the mud down the other side and have to climb back up. As someone once said: Why do we fall? So we can learn to get back up again.

So even though I'm being rejected time and time again by these companies, I keep trying because someone along the way will say "Yes, her, she's exactly what Im looking for." Someone will want me to work for them, someone will believe in me and my abilities. And those who dont, well nothing I can do about it.

As well as being rejected by employers, I have some stupid girl stuff going on in my head which is never fun. But I'm talking to my friends and they are awesome at telling me to wise up or giving me advice when I need it. So this is for them.

This is for all of you who are going through a rough time. You'll reach the top eventually and when you do, it will all have been worth it and when you start tumbling again, you know you've made it through once, you can do it again. Life is unfair, but you get what you're given and you learn to deal with it. And at the end of the day, "all you can hope for is the love you've felt to equal the pain you've gone through"* and hope that it's enough.

And if that doesn't make you feel better, then This certainly will.


*Quote from an Editor's song.
**I'll have a future husband letter on tues/wed for you
***Thanks for all the comments on the last post. Please keep them coming :)